I worry about my children. A lot more than I should. I think that just comes with the territory of motherhood. Moms of adults... does this ever go away? But there was a season last year when I was not ok. My prayers came from a place of worry and fear, and even though I talked to the Lord about those fears frequently, I never handed them over to Him. I just talked. And I never listened.
I worried about every little detail. Health, safety, school districts, friends, mental/physical/emotional development, relationships… you get the picture. I prayed about all of this, too. I prayed for specifics. I prayed that God would open this door or that door. I essentially gave God my five-minute PowerPoint presentation and told Him which options I thought would be acceptable.
After listening to a convicting sermon, I walked away with a lump in my throat, but also a little relief. Because I realized there was something that I hadn’t been praying…the most important prayer, really. I hadn’t been praying that my kids would love the Lord more and more every day. I wasn’t praying that they would find a deep passion for the Lord and for His church at a young age. I wasn’t praying that their lives would honor Him and that they would live to do Kingdom work. I realized that if all of those things happen, we don’t have to worry about anything else.
Because if they are truly seeking the Lord’s will for their lives, they’ll be right where He wants them to be. They’ll see the open doors and seek the things that are true and pure.
I’m not saying they won’t make mistakes, we all know they will. But I am saying if they are seeking the Lord, they will accept the grace and forgiveness that Jesus offers, and they’ll keep moving forward.
So, we started praying. And we will continue to pray. The worry hasn’t fully gone away, and honestly I’m not sure it ever will. We don’t have it all figured out. We don’t know what our children’s futures hold. We don’t know how their stories will read. But we do know this. We know that the Lord is the author of their stories. He holds their futures.
We know that He loves them beyond measure. We know He loves them more than we can comprehend.
There are certainly seasons of life that we pray over specific decisions or situations. We still pray for wisdom. We still pray for guidance as we strive to raise our children to love Jesus. But we try not to worry. Because in God’s will is the safest place to be.
So, we do our best. We teach the truth. And we know that He is good. No matter what, He is good.